first blog

dont know why i feel like blogging righ tnow, just something to do to try to make me sleepy. I have class at 9 which gives me 7 hours to sleep if i went to bed right now.. and the countdown starts. gettin sleepier already though ahaha i knew it would work. well lets see..finally hung out with my best friend Casey since Thanksgiving. i'm just glad everything is fine, even though I've had a fun week without her, terrible as it sounds to me. oh and my guy situations, what the hell. Ben still texts me when he wants to and just says what he's doing, but Jon is asking me to do things with him...haha theres a difference. strangely, the past two days i've gone jogging with Jon at the trails and it's been fun. I can't wait for Derek to be here on Saturday! it's going to be fun. Derek has to come with me and Jon jogging at these trails. Hopefully the weather is good. Jon brought Isa, his 3 month old golden retriever. She was so adorable and full of energy until after 5 miles. Me and Jon got lost in the trails yesterday and he made me thirty minutes late for work, but he made up for it. Thing is, I think he's still with his on again off again girlfriend Amanda, but I'm not sure..he's not acting like it, I just haven't thought to ask yet, it didn't cross my mind. And I haven't done anything with him, I mean, he was holding my hand and putting he arm around me while we walk inbetween sprints. He started giving me kisses on the side of my forehead, and I said "Thanks" I thought it was weird though bc we were just supposed to be jogging buddies. I wish I could post a picture Jon took of my swollen shin from Sunday..I bust my ass, tripped on a tree root ahaha but I was helped up and nearly carried to a log right up the path and comforted by a charming older man...not much older just 6 years, still though aha. i'm crushin but i know i shouldt. i know jon is a player sine 4 years ago. he's told me he's a whore, and to watch out he lives in my neighborhood. haah. i think he's still with Amanda and i think he might trying to get closer to the OTHER Amanda again though. he had asked me if i had talked to Amanda, and Amanda just posted on facebook something about people need to stop apologizing its annoying or something, idk there was mad drama, and I even stopped talking to Jon for a few months, until Sunday. I need to stop crushing though. He's not right for me, just really cute. but this turned into a ramble session and i need to stop obsessing about these guys.